I hate my fucking life right now...

I don't even want to have the party.

I wanna just sit at home, alone, and cry my eyes out, like I've been doing all morning.

But I cant, because I have no way of contacting ashley or sabrina to tell them the party's been canceled. So, it looks like another night of lies and fake smiles. Joy.

And the drinking begins!

Lets see how fucked up I can get before the night is over, shall we?

2nd post of the morning!

Yey! 2 consecutive posts in less than 20 minutes! Go me!

So, I cleaned some last night...>.> Well, I almost got it done...kinda.

I got distracted and teh next thing I know its like 9 and im sleepy, so i stop.

I should have it finished tonight.

Not that I have any other choice. I have to have it cleaned by tmrw night or else my bday party (if i survive past tmrw) will have to be canceled. And I cant have that. Ill cry.

But I WILL get it done...eventually.

Q.Q

I fucking hate life right now.

Ugh.

So, today I woke up like 30 minutes before I had to leave, took a shower, and decided that today would be my "I-dont-care" day. You know, when you just wear whatever and you could give three shits about your make up and how you look. See, i do this quite often. Get the idea in my head and then try to run with it. yeah. well.

i hate life.

My I dont care days always turn into my why the fuck didnt i care days and my whole day is uined because i look icky, therefor I feel icky. I'm already at that point and its only...7:25 AM. FUCK ME.

I look like...doodie.

No lie.

-cry- -angst- -cutcut-

T-T

whoa.

First time I've been on my compy in AGES. wow. I hate this piece of shit. Cant wait till I get the new one. Ah well, this one has served me well these past couple of years. I guess I really cant complain. <3

On a random note: See that picture? ^ The One at the top of the page?

Yeah.

EPIC.

Anyway.

School is going pretty well. All my classes are pretty cool and everybody loves me (xD) so all is good there. Only thing I really have a problem with is Home Maintainance. Fucking boring as hell, and im the only girl there. Talk about sausage fest. -eye roll- fucking freshmen boys....>.> gah.

Well, easy credit i suppose. It could be worse.

COUNT DOWN. T MINUS TWO DAYS UNTIL ULTIMATE DOOM. Q.Q

-dies-

Blog

So im sitting next to brookesany. Its early and we're waiting for everyone to show up for the meeting this morning.

Pete's mustache smells like dog, but it's hella sexy and bitchin'. WURD. Im so jealous and so is brookesany.

I wish i was in pajamas right now. Like Nicole. Lucky bitch.

Pete's talkin bout oranges. Fucking mexican. Now i want oranges. GDI.

End post.

Mah.

Its been forever since I've been online. Okay, its been like what...3-4 days? Not the point. It feels like forever. And sometimes the way it feels is worse than the reality.

Whoa. Where did that piece of EMO come from?

-shakes head-

anyways

I'm sitting in the library at school, bored and blogging since I've nothing better to do. Ah! The joys of being like the 1st one in school every morning. <3 I love it!

No.

I don't.

I lie.

Being at school this early bites. It makes me wonder why I bothered coming back. I could be sleeping right now...>.> Dreaming of House or more cracked out dreams about...Certain people that we will not mention at this time. xD

Anywhozer.

I cant really think of anything to blog about.

I want to dance.

Really bad,

Its driving me crazy with the urges. Q.Q

-dances crazily-

Okay, now that THATS out of my system.

I still cant think of anything to blog about.

OH! I'm getting a camera soon! YEY! Its a camcorder PLUS a digital camera and like voice recorder and just about everything else you can think of. I'm pretty sure it hold music too. Not too sure, but still. I'm hella excited about it! I've wanted one for so long. My life is almost complete.

Well, you know. Until it ends this friday. T_T

I'll spend my birthday alone in my room crying and getting drunk off vodka and grape drank. Im serious. Those are my plans.

Well, cant be any worse than my New Years. At least this time I'll have alcohol, right?

Anyways.

I'm out of shit to blog about without it getting crazy emo up in here.

So I guess I'll be on my way.

~rei out~