I cant think...

Nothing makes sense in my head. Or out of it for that matter.

My thoughts, my emotions. I just don't know what I'm doing anymore.

I hate this

I hate this whole thing.

My life I mean.

I don't know if I can keep this up.

Everything was looking up for a while there. My life was decent for once. Now...I don't know.

Now I'm just scared.

I'm terrified and confused and I...I'm lost.

How did I manage to get so off track? What happened to my plans?

They died. I'm so far gone I dont know if I'll ever make it back.

I need help but...I dont know who or how they could help me.

I cant even help myself.

Well...

Thats a lie.

There is one way.

But I dont know if I'm ready for that yet.

Thats almost as scary as growing up and facing my life and all the decisions i've made along the way.

Almost.

We'll see.