Matsu Wa (I'll wait): W

This is an absolutely lovely song. Q.Q Almost made me cry even before I read the english lyrics (With my basic knowledge of Japanese i was able to get some of it, but not the whole song) and then i actually checked with what they were really saying and i was all like Q.Q! Good song by a good duo. I love W. they will be missed.

I used to always pretend to be cute and people said

I tried too hard

Back then living was hard

Our love comes and goes,

always passing each other by

That we would someday, somewhere be joined

Is my eternal dream

The wide, blue sky doesn't belong to anyone

The clouds fluttering in the breeze

Drifting along

I'll wait, I'll wait forever

Even if you don't turn around

I'll wait, (I'll wait)

I'll wait forever

Until the day someone else dumps you

It's sad how with you,

I'm always A joker with no need for tears

I can easily bluff my way through

But when I'm alone,

I quietly cry

No one can see my heart

But I wanted you at least

To understand I'll wait,

I'll wait forever

Even if you don't turn around

I'll wait, (I'll wait)

I'll wait forever

If I can at least look at you I'll wait,

I'll wait forever

Even if you don't turn around

I'll wait, (I'll wait)

I'll wait forever

Until the day someone else dumps you

Denial Quote

Okay, so i just got done reading this lovely House, M.D. Fanfic called denial. Basic rundown:

Chase falls in love with House and is afraid that House will hurt him so he suddenly stops talking to House and does everything in his power to avoid him and naturally House is..Well, i wouldnt say upset or confused as much as he is intrigued, so he sets out to figure out what the hell is up with chase because secretly he wants Chase too. So, after an arguement and some feelings shared, the two agree that their relationship wont be all flowers and love letters and give it a whirl and live happily ever after and whatnot.

Anyway, here's a paragraph in it that really spoke to me, so I thought I'd share it with all the blog peoples.

What you feel for him isn’t the stuff made in fairytales. There are no happily ever afters and you don’t have the sudden urge to fucking dance just because you are in love. Instead you feel a mixture of longing and hate and something else you can’t identify. And it fucking hurts, just like it’s supposed to because being in love isn’t all about sunshine, puppies and rainbows.

Isnt that lovely? I thought it was. And i found it very fitting. I feel like that myself sometimes.

Love bites, kiddies.

Get used to it.

<3

Our Songs

So, whilst in bed this morning, refusing to get up because imma lazy bum, i started thinking about all my friends and so i decided to make this post. Basically, its a list of my friends and the songs that make me think of them!



NOTE: I dont remember half of the singers or even some of the song titles. But you get the idea.



Brookesany: Honestly, we sing way too much for us to just have one song, but if I had to choose, it would have to be the Emo Kid song by Adam and Andrew. Its one of the first songs we ever sang together back when we became friends. Ahhh, good times.



Ashley: When the Day met the Night- Panic at the Disco. Yeah, i totally got her hooked on Panic during UBSP. Ha! We used to argue about this song all the time. But it was her favourite from the CD, so i always think of her when i listen to it.



Sabrina (AKA Chuke): Boom Boom Boom- Aqua??? IDk, maybe, but yeah. Good times in freshman year when we were the BoomBoom Twins. xD



Wolf: Hagane No Kokoro-Romi Paku. Q.Q I miss her and her crazy.



Charlie: Here we go again-Paramore. I dedicated this song to him after our "break up" and some times i think it still fits.



Stephanie: FSCENE8-The Medic Droid. Oh the fun we had blaring this in her car.



Billy: What What in my Butt-?. xD



John: Homecoming-Hey Monday. We sang this together at Jade's. It shocked me that he even listened to Hey Monday, better yet knew the words. I guess there's a lot about Johnathan that i dont know. HE never ceases to amaze.



Jade: Hmm, not a song as much as a band and not even the band as much as the way he spelled it. Panic at the Disko. With a K. yeah. I love jade.



Korie: Low (Apple Bottom Jeans)-Some black rapper (they all sound the same to me) We used to be hardcore gangster in her car to the song. Q.Q



Hunter: Hate Me-Blue October. Really, anything by them reminds me of Hunter. He loves that band.



Rader: Dance Dance-Fall Out Boy. xD



Carrisa: Love Will Leave You Cryin-?. Ah, to be you, supid and in love.



(He who must not be named): Where I Stood-Missy Higgins. Q.Q Okay, so mayeb it doesnt fit us entirely, but its close enough.



YumYum: Mouse Chu Mouse-?. GAH! He always used to get that song stuck in my head! Bastard.



Grant: Im Fat-Weird Al. BEST FAT GUY EVER.



Fat Matt: Zelda's Lulaby-Zelda. He used to play it for me on his Ocarina. I miss him.



Hair Matt: Barber and His Wife: Sweeney Todd. It creeped me out to have him sing it to me, but at the same time, i loved it.



Brittany: You are the one-HelloGoodbye. (I think) what a night.



Ethan: I wanna kiss you all over-?. Dont even ask.



Standard and Andrea: Big girls dont cry-Fergie. lol, i love UBSP.



Kenny: walls(?)- Serg Tankian. ( i think). Kenny is me if i was really tiny and had a penis.



Jeremy: Cupid Shuffle-? OMG, i miss him so much. He never taught me th dance to this song, damn him!



Jared: Kelsey-Metro Station.



Archuleta: TIme Warp-RiffRaff and Magenta. HA!



Chelsea: Aint no mountain High enough-?. xD



The UBSP Girls: Fer Sure-Medic Droid and Damaged-Danity Kaye. Good times.



Andyroo: Rocket Man-Elton John. xD



Nick: No song, but the word Cabbage reminds me of nick. And so do Koala bears. o.O



Cat: Kesegi-?. it reminds me of Sin High, which, by default, reminds me of Cat.



Weston (okay, so maybe we're no friends anymore. Sam edifference to me) I beleive in a thing called love-The darkness. o.O yeah.

Hayden: My Humps-BEP


Okay, yeah. The list just keeps getting longer, so im gonna stop now before it takes over the blog...>.> But you get the general idea.

Sorry if i missed anyone!

Jaja!

Word Of The Day:

NAUGHTY.



Its a fun word. ;3 I dont know why, but, at the moment, the word naughty just tickles my chicken whenever I hear it.

It makes me wanna wriggle my eyebrows and speak dirty in a French accent all day.

Yeah. That's right.

I went there.

French.

My New Make-Up Fetish

Okai! So, as you all know, I've been watching a lot of make up tutorials on YouTube and junk and I have become pretty much obsessed with it lately. And, of course, every aspiring make up artist needs the tools of the trade. So, i have spent a good amount of time scanning the web and finding decent make up at an affordable price, and i have prevailed!


The above image is a picture of the 88 colour shimmer pallete from CoastalScents.com. I should be getting it soon, as it was shipped today. Im hella excited. <3 Look at it. Isnt it fucking gorgeous? Tell me you dont want to sex it up right now. I'm telling you, if i could, i'd make sweet sweet love sex to it. Fer sure.

Also, I just bought a couple items from Eyeslipsface.com or E.L.F. makeup, you know, just to try it out. If it proves to be a good investment, I'll end up buying a lot of make up from them. Everything there is hella cheap. Most of it is $1. WHich, if its even half way decent, is a great deal. Wal-Mart make up is cheap (in quality only) and cost like 8 bucks a pop. I might have stumbled onto something amazing. lol. xD

Of course, i owe both of these discoveries to MonroeMisfitMakeup. Without her, i would never have known the joys of internet shopping for beauty supplies. Q.Q Thank you, Jody. <3

What would you do if I were a canable?

(I'm pretty sure I spelt Canable wrong...>.> I have got to be the worst speller in the world. Without spell check I am nothing...)

Anyway! Time for another random blog! Yey!

*cue carnival muzak* do do dododo do do do dodo.

Okays! Sooo, first off. I love youtube. I do. I have spent most of my time these past couple days looking up vids online. Make up tutorials. Music videos. and other random junk. And i think im in love...

MonroeMisfitMakeup. If you've never heard of her or seen her videos, DO IT. You shouldn't be allowed to do any sort of make up if you havent seen her stuff. She's like my new God. I swear. Only bad thing is she only has 20 videos and i've already watched them all. But she is defi amazing. Serious talent here folks. No lie.

Best part? She taught herself! Talent like that shoudlnt be self learned. But it is. Thanks to a weird childhood spent with drag queens and club kids, Jody has taken make up to a whole new level. I've heard of make up artist, but i've never seen an ARTIST who specializes in make up before. I adore her.

Second person i have fallen madly in love with via youtube. TrayceShaw. He's this adorable little bisexual teenager who makes my heart smile. He goes from being a total goof one minute to a serious, deeply opinionated young man. This kid is choice. No lie. I watched him eat 3 feet of bubble gum and i couldnt stop laughing. Hes so effin cute. <3

ATM i'm not madly in love (via youtube) with anyone else. But if i do fall for someone i'll let you know.

Hmmmmmm.

You know what sucks? Cliffy sex. If you're a writer, please, for the sake of fangirls everywhere. DOnt leave off right before they are about to get it on. IT KILLS US. Gah! You have no fucking idea how much that sucks. CLiffies, i understand. They're all good clean authoress fun. But they're bad enough. Cliffy sex. NO GO. It makes me wanna punch small children. SO please. Think of children.

I found a dress that i used to wear back when i was younger. Its so cute and tiny and makes me smile on the inside.^-^ Makes me miss my youth.

I saw your name and my heart skipped. But my heart is clumsy and ended up falling, face first, and it got hurt.

I've found that their are some people i miss more since leaving school and it surprised me. The one i think i miss most that i never get to see anymore is Nick. I effin love Nick. He's such a sweet heart when he's not being a narrow minded dick hole. I should call him or something so we can hang out. That would be nice. Of course, i would have to have the asian over or something. As much as i love Nick and regardless of the fact that he's one of my bestest guy friends, being alone in my room with him might be wierd (Not because im afraid something might happen, i just know nick. He's a naturally awkward person).

I'm totally gonna get andrew and Brookesany in a three way. lol. xD

I'm getting a piercing! I wont say where, but its one I've wanted for a while. I'll have it hopefullu by next weekend and then i'll make another post about it. ^-^ I'm excited.

I have a date tomorrow. O.o I know right? Wth, i dont even like dating. Well, technically, we're not dating. I'm just going out on a date (as in ONE date) with this guy. And since its a double date with my ex (can you say awkward) it counts even less. We're going glo bowling. Ew. But whatever. I'm doing it for Brittany, not for myself. I mean, Cody is okay, yeah, but, he was my 4th grade crush. How weird is that? o.O Yeaaaah.

Another awkward thing about it? Well, my date's friday night, and saturday he'll prolly be at M@TM which means he'll be able to see me molest John. ...Yeah. I'm telling you, this could get bad. But whatev. I'm much fonder of John. (coughcough)

Hmm, speaking of saturday, I'm chillin with Brookesany, Andyroo, and Steph that day! yey! I need more friends that are true. Well, okay, i have plenty, i just need to hang out with them more often. O.o Yeah. But we should have tons of fun! Andyroo might rent porn and we'll play singstar and guitar hero and all kinds of awesome.

Which reminds me. I gotta call steph tomorrow.

Today. Whatever.

Hmmm, im trying to think of more things to blog about. But atm i cant....

Oh well, see ya round blog peoples!

Ja!

It's Been A While.

I finally got my room done. I started the 16th, finished the 3rd. And TECHNICALLY i'm still not done. I need to unpack everything, but i'm lazy. xD I know i really should get to that, and i will, probably this week, so i can have people *coughcough* over this weekend. Fuck Jade's house, its way too far to walk in this cold.



Speaking of, I chilled with John and Jade this weekend. A good couple hours at Jade's watching him blow people up and talking about pants. Lol. Im not lying. Evidentally John's new Zebra Print skinnies (OMFG, I WANT) have, and i quote, "Perfect Cock and Ball space" >.<>

Also speaking of this weekend, it was not all sunshine and butterflies in the world of Jessica.

My mother showed up.

Thats right, i havent so much as gotten a bday card from her in over 5 years and all the sudden she pops up at my house Saturday and wants to start over. Fuck that. I locked myself in my room and pretended to work on unpakcing when really all i did was be pissed. I partially blame my uncle. He's the one hell bent on getting everyone back together. I like my uncle mike, but sometimes he just doesnt get it. I hate her. She left me. She abandoned her 4 children for a man. She doesnt deserve any more chances.

But whatever, i did my laundry, fixed my make up (very nicely, might i add) and went out, completely ignoring her. and i had a great time hanging out with people. I miss being a part of the real world. It was nice to get out of the house for once.

PLUS, i had my first famous moment saturday night!

Okay, so, i was sitting there, i think it was right after Renae left, and these 2 girls came up to me and asked if they could take pics with me. It made me feel hella sexy. lol. No lie. I could totally get used to people feeding my ego. -hair flip-

Hmmm, what else what else?

its still cold as fuck. Even with the heater, iowa sucks. Q.Q I wanna move somewhere warm and happy. One day. I will. And i will never have to freeze again.

ladida. didida

yeah, i got nothin.

Oh well, until my life becomes more interesting, see ya around